I isolated myself, thinking I was a danger
to the human race.
A heart breaker, a lover, a stranger
Stumbled over words, no grace.
I was trouble ~couldn’t handle people.
I was chaos~ in all the crowds I was lost.
So I, stopped for a moment,
slipped into silence,
where I was fine and,
I was alright ~ playing with shadows
Being alone, singing my own songs.
I preferred my own company –
Until the Lonely came to take me.
Then there was music, then there was you
Slowly pulling at my hands, making me tick.
Well then, if you wanna be here, teach me how to make friends.
Teach me how to talk to good people.
‘Cause all the people I ever find turn out to be so evil.
Teach me the way you turn on the charm,
Cause all I ever do with it is harm…
Teach me how to be calm in the storm of anxiety.
Teach me how to be care-free, teach me how to feel.
So tell me all the words I should memorise.
All the little conversation starters.
Let’s go over all the stories and lies.
How to say hello and how to depart
Are my jokes good enough, can I make people laugh?
How do I avoid awkward silences
How do I stay between sensible and daft?
Am I being too mean, am I being too kind.
Am I including everyone
Or are they all judging me. Do they mind~
If I get a little sad, or too flirty and fun.
‘Cause you’re the only one I know
how to be me around.
Only one I can talk to
Even without a sound…
Only one I talk true to
Only one I allow into my stories.
I just want you.
Selfish of me I know
But they told me to hold onto yellow
When I’m feeling blue.
So hello, hello, hello
How are you?
Will you whisper me your secrets…
Will you stay and converse.
‘Cause I’ve been dried out
My mind dying with thirst.
You activate my engines
Your words sink beneath my skin.
You taught me how to make friends
I’ve been quiet for so long now~
I hope this poetry never ends…